Well, by huge cut in pay I meant compared to what I was making before. Considering that I'm laid off and no one seems to be paying much, it'd be great! But even though I'd be in a different department, if I got the job, I'd relinquish any claim to the severance money I had coming to me. If I got a job with another company, I could keep the severance money. That's my dilemma. But I am very interested in the job and am well suited for it. And they try to fill new hires from laid off employees first, so there's a good chance I'd get it.
Regarding XW, I think you're probably spot on with your analysis. She's very independent and probably hasn't really thought things through. Has just assumed that if she's nice to me, I'll always be there for her same as always. We just wouldn't be married anymore.
Just had an episode that made me realize I'm not fully healed. XW sent email asking to use my vehicle. Normally I'd say no problem. I don't really care, to be honest. And truthfully, I'm having a harder and harder time seeing why XW and I were even married. Maybe that's a coping mechanism, I don't know, but I have no clue why we were ever together. However, I know that she's going to be working with OM - the one she asked me to wait 6 months while she tried to start a R with. So I wrote back and said while normally I'd be happy to lend her my vehicle, to be frank, I didn't want OM to step foot inside my car. She wrote back that she understood and thanks.
I know they aren't even in a R, I know I should let it go and for the most part I have. I don't give him a second thought. I could easily let her take the car and not care. But it was more the fact that she felt comfortable asking. I would never have asked that of her and I'm amazed she would feel like she could ask it of me. That's why I had to say no.
And now those feelings of disbelief and anger are welling up again. GRRRR - I thought that was all dead! Oh well, glad I'm leaving town tomorrow.
