Not much happening here. Still waiting for the finance for the project although things are looking positive this week. So still under a lot of financial pressure causing a little bit of strain between us, but nothing that we arenet able to work through.
I have found myself over the last week really missing home and my wife. I really do want to get back there soon, but I cant until the finance comes in and I can get things going here. I got a bit upset with my wife when I talked to her once looking for support and had a push back from her saying she is having problems coping at the moment and not to call her up if Im going to dump my problems on her. I was frustrated by this as I thought support is supposed to be a two way street and I cant be the giver of it at all times. So our conversation was a bit strained and ended up with her getting quite upset at me.
She called me up about an hour after this and apologised. I know she is the one wearing all of the financial pressure at home and i have to remember this. She even apologised for 'dumping' her problems on me and I told her that is what I am here for. I know we need to be together for a bit so Im going to aim to get back there as soon as I can.
I know relieving the financial pressure is going to make things much easier, getting rid of those debt collectors is going to make life much better. We are both looking forward to seeing each other so this is all good.
Well even though I havnt got the book I have figured out from the board here that my wife LL is gifts. I have alays misuderstood this. She use to always get me a little gift when she went shopping (could just be some sweets, a book, a tie or something) and I never realised this and the significance of it. Also from what I have read here my LL is words of affirmation and touch (Im going to ask her to pick the book up for me in Australia - and hopefully read it). So today I sent her a dozen red roses with a nice message that will show up at her house tomorrow. Im not a big flower person, typical male person I think well they are going to die in a few days so its a waste of money - well DAH forgve me and my poor male radar here.
Im going to make a point of getting something sent to her each week, nothing big just a gift to let her know that I am thinking of her. I want to keep some element of suprise in this so I will put my mind into thinking of unique gifts ways to deliver them.
Anyway, the champagne is still in the fridge, dont think I will get to it this week btu next week is looking more hopeful.
Andrew
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To go forward you have to put the past behind you
