Wow, we really have some huge similarities. My w. also says I am not listening to her and fighting her often.
I wish I had something to offer other than hope for better days. I know I have had long stretches where I was convinced there was no hope. In my better days I focused on GAL and detaching. And now, maybe there is a little light...
God we're even pretty much the same age. Best of luck JKL. Hang in there.
