Lost I am sorry. I remember those early days, weeks, months and yes even years. It will take time to get through all of this. Allow yourself time to grieve. Let the emotions come and wash over you. It took me a long time to get back my self esteem. But in the end it was a journey I am glad that I was forced on. I am much happier with who I am.
It will take time but as some wise person said it is what you do with that time that will heal your wounds. Take care of yourself and your children.
Also visit mlc board. Depression and mlc are so similar I think you can find some really good resources and similarities in stories there.
