Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

Nc~ You are so right!... I do think that he thinks I don't "need" him . that's not true, I do need him, but not to feel secure about myself, to just be there as a H and a father, and I need for him to be there for me "emotionally" which we all know he hasn't been the greatest on that end.

I do know it is hard for him to be away, and of course its harder for him that for me, he's the one who is by himself without the kids. He needs me more physically than emotionally.. so I do try to keep it interesting for him (pics etc..).. when he does come home he wants me all the time, and that's fine, at least I know that he is waiting till he does come home. I have been reassuring him more often, and im just being more aware of it.


WDID... that's just it, he doesn't think we have any problems. He just wants me to be more interested in Sex more often. So That I have been working on.. and also the fact that I am not rejecting him. Im the one who is struggling more than him. But im not going anywhere..

The kids are great.. of course they do drive me nuts, but I love them just the same...


Journaling...

So I am going to H's cousin house today. I haven't spoken to her in about 6 years. Here H is a jerk. Always was. My H and him had a falling out and we just never talked again, but then I found out he cheated on her and they were seperated, I was so upset, I couldn't believe it. So I wrote her a card and sent it and just told her if she needed anything that I was here and that although we haven't spoken in a long time, I was very upset to hear such and thing and hoped it was a rumor. Come to find out it wasn't. She called and we talked and she wanted to get together. So It will be an interesting day.