John, I hadn't cut it yet, it happened sometime after he left when I looked at the conversation from an outside perspective.
*He cheated on me not once, or twice, but with three different women. (That I know of)
*He moved out of our house, left me, even when I forgave him for cheating
*He blames me for his not buying the farm, said it was the one time he needed my support and I didn't give it to him. Yet, how many things has he done that I disagree with? If he wanted it badly enough he would have gone and done it. Don't recall him needing my permission to carry on a 20 month affair...
*He left me, but wants to throw a pity party that he has no home and has a 'shitty' life. He admitted himself that every aspect of his life has gotten worse since he left me...of course he just turns it around and blames me
I read the post @ kalni's thread, too.
The thing that has kept me going this far is my son crying himself to sleep at night and my d asking daddy to bring his jammies home. I know you can't stay married just for the kids. But you sure as hell can exhaust every option (counseling, retreats, clergy, etc) to reconnect with your spouse and have a married life, because you want that for your kids. But then again, I am crazy...
