Yeah BBJ...detachment takes longer than most of us believe. If I may; "I just told him that he chose to be homeless and to have a leaking p.o.s. house, he had children and a wife who wanted him and a nice house to live in and he chose to leave it. Then I just had to ask, I asked "What do you gain from refusing to forgive? From holding a grudge?" You have not cut the rope yet BBJ....not even sure you dropped it. Not that there is anything wrong with that. By the way, I still can not believe that he puts the blame on you for all this because of a farm?? Anyhow I just read something on kalni's thread that sure hit home with me...because believe it or not, due to the contact I have with my ex, sometimes I do drift a little.