d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

You bet I'll stick to the schedule. XH came over last night to drop off D4. He pulled into driveway and shut his vehicle off. I was at the back of house and was listening. First thing came to mind. Just because he shut vehicle off, he is not going to stay here for any longer than to just get D4 out of his vehicle. That was a promise I made to myself when his divorce was final.

He got D4 out of vehicle, then I stepped out from the back of house. She quickly said bye to him and ran to me yelling momma. I loved it !! I was dressed up (for me that is) I've never worn a short skirt before (has shorts built into them) but I had that on & a new shirt and nice sandals. Makeup, earrings, jewelry. My XH and I never spoke, but he was eyeing me up and down. HA-ha. It felt good not to talk to him. Mean maybe for now, but I'm doing that for me. I want to heal.

XH left and ever so slowly he pulled down the road, looking at our yard. What he didn't know or believe was I was cleaning up the farm and weedwacking and mowing for 6 hours this past sunday. I can't believe how nice it all looks. I actually had a blast w/weedwacker. It's a big one and has almost like handle bars on it. I raked gravel, picked up old metal and fencing. Busy, busy. Funny how he never did all of that work. These weeds have been growing for many years. I remember never liking the way my property looked, not very tidy.

He used to tell me that no one ever helped him clean up the place. I admit it was hard for me to help him with our daughter, she's a spit fire, look away and she was gone. Climbing into pasture or ladders. Or she was a baby and with flies and mosquitos, I didn't really want her out. Now that she's older, I can work like crazy and she even helps. She's the best rock picker around (ha-ha). It's how we approach our kids with chores and she loves to help me. Funny thing, I did all that work by myself on Sunday. Even had to stop to help my D4 wipe her bottom once, and get her lunch.

And yes, WCW --- I and D4 cleaned out the barn !! She had on her "poop" boots (as she calls them) and we shoveled away. She played with the goat and cow (1200 # holstein cow) that's all I have left now. I'll be getting rid of them too this fall. Just too much expense and work w/fences, frozen water in winter, major electic bills with all that running in the winter. Hate to do that to D4 but needs to be done.

Have a great day and thanks for stopping by. I suppose I need to go to the divorced spot and start over. Yea, Yea, I'll get to it soon !! LOL everyone