I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

Morning everyone..
I'm a bit distraught at the moment.
I never expected to hear from H so you can understand my surprise this morning when I received an email from him.. I don't know what to do regarding what it is asking me, before I go any further, here's the email:

Hi,
I'm sorry I took so long to reply to this.
It's been a hard time for me and I haven't been
feeling great. But I'm working on each day at a
time. I know it's incredibly hard for you too, but
I'm just expressing where I'm coming from.
I'm having trouble with my visa and I don't know
how much longer I'll be able to stay after Aug 31st.
You had said before that you'd help if you can and
I'm asking if you'll sign a form, I think it's just one page
and one signature, that acknowledges we got married.
I've been on ***** as much as I can, and I'm trying
to get some money in, so I can also get you a few hundred
dollars as soon as I can, like I said before, but I'm sorry
it's delayed. There's so much to pay for I'm totally swamped,
I know you know what it's like. But I'll get you cash as soon
as I can.
I hope you're well and I hope the job interview went well,
and I just want you to know I'm thinking of you,
love
H


I honestly don't know what to say. To be totally honest, I feel like I am being used. He only emailed me when he needed something and I know I said I would do anything to help him with the visa but that was a long time ago when I missed him so much that I would do anything to get him back. Now, I'm just angry at him, too angry to want to do this. I know if I don't do it, he'll have to go back home and I probably will never see him again and will not have anymore contact with him, which I really don't want, but I don't want to be a doormat either, I don't want to be someone he comes to only when he needs help.

What do you guys think I should do? I know for sure that I'm not going to reply right away. To be quite honest, I don't want to reply back at all. This really hurts. How did I know that he'd only contact me if he needed something? A part of me wants to do it for him just because I love him and because I feel like this will be the last thing I do for him to make up for the past. But he hasn't done anythng to make up for the past and the mistakes that he's made - I really feel like he's just using me.

I'm so lost, I don't know what to do. Can any of you experienced DBers give me any advice at all? Anything would be greatly appreciated. I know I need more than a few days to think about what I want to do but advice on how to proceed would be so helpful right now and even just support. Thanks so much, I look forward to hearing your responses..