It has been quite a past few days. I had a great week last week with being able to maintain a PMA and not let things get to me. Then I started seeing so much of my H peeking out and heard/saw things that really surprised me (in a good way). Of course there was still crazy MLC crap but good stuff too, "normal" stuff. Now we seem to be back into the pushing away part of the dance and I am letting it get to me too much. When I see the good things it is so hard for me to have patience because I almost expect things to snap back to normal and of course they won't. I need to just detach and enjoy the easier interaction between us and not worry about the timeline!
And I just can't get over the selfishness and how an adult can put their needs above their desires over their kids'. I wonder if he really just can't think about anyone else right now or won't?
I know everyone's journey through MLC is different but I can someone reconnect with the family BEFORE issues were worked through in his head? Some things he has said recently have made me think he really does know some of the things that are truly getting to him from his past and that he is realizing his void filling is not working but I can't see him being able to work through them anytime soon.
