Oh, I just emailed her rather strongly about wanting to see the kids when she comes down to near where i am living. I said that my parents need to see the kids too. They are not responsible for our choices. And I told her that the other guy could just stay away. I finally really told her how it made me feel, to have him go with us to the lake or whereever when he did not need to. It was rude for him to tag along when i was trying to spend time with the kids....... "I realize that I can be loving, but why in the heck do you deserve much tenderness from me? **** (OM) did not need to come last Monday, and yet you flippin invited him!
I really resent that alot!!!! I appreciated your action in the evening, talking to me on the front lawn. I could use more of that with you, but that does not negate everything else you have done and plan on doing...(ie, You cant come to the farm, because I am taking ****- who does not need to go!!!!!!!!!!) You piss me off!!!!!
It is really easy to hurt someone who cares for you!! And you have been doing it for over 1 year. You have so much that I love about you. And I have been enjoying some of your growth, and the good talks we have had.
But you still keep kicking me where it hurts. When are you going to start trusting me more? I am not perfect, but what is your criteria for deserving your trust?"
I have been trying to be soft and uncritical, but she needs to know the scoop!
I hope that she gets a clue. I have been getting a clue myself about what I have done wrong, her turn now.
M/30s WAW/30s 4 children S 1 yr LS 8 months OM / just a friend 1 1/2 YR D 1 month
