Just got back from the fireworks at EPCOT. We had a good time, and those are my favorite fireworks here.
Range of emotions today. Low boiling anger this morning replaced by loving indifference (I know, it doesn't make sense to me either) from lunch on. I have been cordial to W today, but haven't gone out of my way as a H would - just a friend.
Tonight during the fireworks, the thought struck me that this could be the last time we saw these as a family. And I waited for the sadness or anger to come...but other than sadness for the kids, nothing came. I honestly didn't care if I saw these again as my W's H. B/c I would see them always as my children's father. And right now, that's ok. Its not what I want, but its ok. God, I love them. My D5 rode out of the park on my shoulders - its gonna kill me when she's too old for that.
Well, I did my best today. It wasn't my best (or worst) day with W since the bomb...just the best I had today.
