A full day of PMA nearly knocked off the handle just by walking through the door of my own house...
W is dressed in a skimpy low cut mini summer dress, and looks just absolutely knockout gorgeous, and is reading one of her erotic novels on the couch.. I mean, any lower cut, and it would just be a pair of shorts hiked up over her chest!
I don't know exactly yet, why this bothers me so much to see her dressed like this, I understand it's fear at some level, and "I" feel that she is trying to attract a new man. Maybe she just wants to feel sexy and noticed now that she has lost a bunch of weight?
Anyone else understand why it sets my emotions off so much on the down side to see that? Insights?
doing the DB, am I supposed to keep my mouth shut, or offer at least a comment on how great she looks? Or just stay dim on it, and do my own thing?
I didn't say a word about it tonight, kept busy, and going to watch some tv. Thoughts?
I have started to try and just notice really small things to try and keep as positives. After I walked in the house, and started to talk to d8, she jumped in the conversation about them going to the beach, but having to leave early to take ss17 to Drivers Ed, and how she forgot to put it on the calender. I just listened, and asked if they made it on time, she said yes..
Is that a baby step, that she offered up some interaction first? Who knows, but i'll take it as one for now to try and offset the image of her in the dress that set me down a notch..
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
