I refuse to beat myself up over it because I liked it and I missed it and well dangit I wanted it as well (trying to curb my cursing)...
He has called me 3 times today but I wait to answer the phone like I am supposed to do but when he came here and I could look him in the eye, I could feel it in my stomach...
I knew he wasn't happy and I knew he was lying to me and to himself however it is not up to me to fix it...
My job is to fix myself and keep my boys safe...
The oldest is getting there...
He actually texted his Dad back on Saturday (Hubby texts him every few days to see how he is but he refuses to answer)...
All he asked him was when he was coming home however there was no namecalling, cursing or disrespect...
I can't ask for anymore...
Thank you for your kind words and for your prayers, it was a perfect day regardless of who was or who wasn't there...
All that mattered is that He was standing right beside me and I finally knew He wasn't going anywhere...
I am finding peace and I may someday find my name as well
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
