I have been reading along for a while and I just wanted to say hi. Congrats on your baptism. You seem to be making progress with H and I know that is the result of many prayers.
I like reading about all the signs that God has sent you. Isn't God wonderful? Last week I prayed about being freed from any negative influences on my M. The very next day I got onto the wrong lane on the highway and a bumper sticker on the car right in front of me read "Jesus has set me free". This is not the first time something like this has happened to me and honestly, on bad days it is the only thing that keeps me hanging in there. God always knows how to send those rays of sunshine when it is looking dark.
I refuse to beat myself up over it because I liked it and I missed it and well dangit I wanted it as well (trying to curb my cursing)...
He has called me 3 times today but I wait to answer the phone like I am supposed to do but when he came here and I could look him in the eye, I could feel it in my stomach...
I knew he wasn't happy and I knew he was lying to me and to himself however it is not up to me to fix it...
My job is to fix myself and keep my boys safe...
The oldest is getting there...
He actually texted his Dad back on Saturday (Hubby texts him every few days to see how he is but he refuses to answer)...
All he asked him was when he was coming home however there was no namecalling, cursing or disrespect...
I can't ask for anymore...
Thank you for your kind words and for your prayers, it was a perfect day regardless of who was or who wasn't there...
All that mattered is that He was standing right beside me and I finally knew He wasn't going anywhere...
I am finding peace and I may someday find my name as well
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
I will catch up on your sitch when I am done responding to you...
I thank you for posting and I like the sign you received as well...
I have days where I struggle to find a sign but it is always there...
Even in the form of a bumper sticker...
A few weeks back I was spending my lunch hour in the Church parking lot...
Crying and praying and begging and one day I asked God where He was...
Why I wasn't getting anything from Him...
No signs..
Nothing...
I finished praying and left the parking lot...
I looked at my radio and there was a cd in there that I had turned down so I could pray (otherwise I get sidetracked and sing along instead of focusing)...
The song at that moment in time scrolling across the player was Believe...
You may have to look for the signs but they are really there
Sure a red cardinal is easier to see but even the little signs are there for you..."God always knows how to send those rays of sunshine when it is looking dark."
This is the perfect attitude to have
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
If I could write out my own dream For the next time that I sleep You'd be the first one that I see And I the last one that you keep The dream would go on and on While we sway Against all things thrown our way And the morning would be so cruel When it came With sunshine and warmth to blame For announcing the end of my sweet dream For announcing the end of my sweet dream
I just had to have one last tramp round and see my friends before getting some kip
Which will be any time very soon. IF my brain will shift out of overdrive.
Gonna do a couple of chapters of The Reality Dysfunction by Peter F. Hamilton. Now THERE'S an apt title if ever there was one. I must feature in chapter 17
Thanks for your comments on my post. I walk around with a small notebook full of prayers and affirmations which I say during the day when anger/fear/distruct/victim thinking start to rear their respective heads.I have posted some of my favourite verses under the Prayer Circle. Anyone is free to add their own verses to the Bible Alphabet Verses I have started there.
