Thanks for asking. I don't know what happened, I'm ok. No crying, no panic, just went thru my normal motions for the weekend. I didn't write this from last thursday but H played me for a fool. He texted me(last thurs.) that he was reconsidering the D. I was so happy, I told him to call my L friday am and tell her. We small texted and my heart was so happy. He even agreed to counseling for us. Well that was early evening, then 3 hours later he wanted to come over and stay, (daughter in bed) I said no, I was in bed and had to get up early. I just had a feeling that he was playing a game. Then at 1am friday he texted me, small talk. Very irrational texts.
I tried to stay nice but told him I had been sleeping (have to get up in a few hours). Friday came, I didn't hear from him or my lawyer. My heart sank, my brain already knew that the divorce wasn't to be stopped, but my heart hoped.
Friday pm, he dropped off D4, small talk. I stayed calm but nervous. He never said a word but he was looking forward to going out to pary. H goes to leave and I finally asked him if he had made his decision. He was so smug, he goes decision? about what?. I asked him, are we still going to be married on our anniversary on sunday? He looked at me and smiled and said, divorce going thru on saturday.
I was so ticked off. But held it in, He got into his vehicle and I walked up to him and wished him happiness and he was being such a smart ass that I told him what I thought of some of the foolish things he has done these last 8 months. And how much he crushed me with his comments about not wanting to have children and blaming alot on daughter. I tried to smile the whole time. Then I told him to get the H**L off my property. Wrong, but felt good.
He left, I never cried. Woke up saturday (day of divorce), thanked the Lord for all he has done for us and went about my day with my D4. Sunday "old" anniversary, wow it didn't really bother me.
Tonight will be the first time I will have seen him or "talked" to him since friday. Whether he likes it or not he will drop D4 off and leave. This is what he wanted. MY DAUGHTER & I WILL BE OK !! I actually feel relieved.
How is it going with you??
Me: 46 H: 38 D: 6 M: 8-2-2003 Left Nov. 28, 2008 - He filed for D 2-18-09 1st D-Day was 6/9/09 H missing papers FINAL: 8/1/09 done thru the mail
