im so nervous for him to be home today...of course i look great but im nervous for the interaction if he demands money. im prepared to say, you put us in the position of retaining lawyers, therefore i am doing as i am told and if u have any questions, contact your lawyer.

im still fuming about last night. fuming in general. my shingles pain is acting up of course, which doesnt help any. atleast i dont have the blisters, just the pain. im too young for shingles!

hopefully, he wont even come in the house today and any interaction will be slim to none.

i keep reminding myself just not to engage, not to defend, as much as i would really like to!

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09