Don't quit Lost. You know yourself that he is very, very sick and from the way you explained his behavior, it is very clear to me that he is sick. Like I've always said, my H left me when I was sick and I would never wish that upon anyone and what I admire about you is your desire not to leave him because you know he's sick. You have a heart, you're not taking the easy way out like my H did. Don't give up on him, it's going to be tough and he needs a lot of time to get better and that's all up to him and you'll have to work on his timeframe. He might decide he needs help and gets better, he might not. But if you give up now, you will never know if you both could have had that chance again.
Continue making yourself happy, do fun things, increase activities that boost your confidence. LIVE YOUR LIFE!! It'll be much easier in the longrun to be able to deal with the sitch once you do so.
But then again, this is all up to you hun. Do you really want this? Would you be upset with yourself in the future if you gave up now? Go for a walk. Think about it.
Remember, time is your friend and you will get through this a much stronger person!
HUGS xx
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**