Hi Rob, Yup...she's up to a lot of the same thing...the anger and control is so clearly hers - and yet she tries to put it on my at any turn.
I wonder if she's aware of what it means to gaslight...since she's practically a master of it...at least she used to be - these days I tend to be too prepared for it, so her efforts have lost their efficacy.
That said, it doesn't mean she won't try...this past weekend I got an email from her claiming that my tone is the problem - this, because I told her in an email that I considered it disrespectful and irresponsible to have her phone off for four days while traveling with S2...Thus far she has never accepted responsibility for anything - and it truly does seem to go back to that moment when our MC suggested that her affair was my fault...B followed up that session by bringing that belief up many times...Even when she accused me of disrespecting our marriage...
Still...with all this stuff of hers...she's not really what's on my mind these days. Rather, I keep thinking about the fact that my S12 is leaving in a couple weeks to spend the school year with his mom. I know it's best for him - right now she can offer him a stability I just cannot - and I know I'll see him again soon - and during all his school breaks - but it's just hard to think of being here without him.
His little brother just adores him - and hearing them laugh together is just about the best moment of any day of my life. I don't think B has any idea just how much S2 and S12 love one another.
I suppose I just have to continue to live in the present - make the most of each moment - and stop squandering my time on this planet. Wasting energy also means wasted time...no more of that.
