thanks again. I really need the encouragement. I'm working 6 days a wk and have the pets and a kid. If thats not too much busy already, now I'm spending 1 day a wk looking for a new apartment. I am going to read brandnewday's posts when I can get the time! I did read some others at your suggestion and it helped snap me up. The light bulb is finally on. No letter, you are right again. We had a 2 wk breakup 3 yrs ago and the letter I gave him did bring him back to my door. But this is much more serious and I have messed up too much already. He came to drop the flash drive. I gave him his mail, it was short. He wasn't annoyed. Just as I came out to meet him, my upstairs neighbor & a couple of his kids came down. He and Mark talked a bit. Weird timing and it prevented us from having any convo really. The universe intervenes again, protecting me from myself! I was smiley and light. I asked how he's doing and he replied "yes mon, I'm good." That was it. He looked at ? my beads, my dress, my stomach... couldn't tell. I could see a moment of pain on his face at that second. I told him to have good day and went back inside. I resisted the urge to throw my arms around him. He was a sight for sore eyes, let me tell you. This a.m. I left him a message that the drive is ready, but that i'm out apt. hunting so I'll check in with him another day about the pickup. I'm going to stall his trip into the basement for stuff until my house in order. I need a few hours to do that and it won't be early this week at least.
