K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I can't disagree Wifey and CG and 25 and DW.

I did show very honest concern for my W and her health and I expressed that to her last night. She knows I don't want anything to happen to her.

As far as the timelines go. I didn't actually join this site until December 30th, 2008. So this would be my 8th month on here. W announced she wanted a D back in September 2008 which was the second bomb and never changed her mind since. She originally wanted a D in February 2008, but then we reconciled the week we were down in Florida for my mom's funeral in April. I did grieve over my mom. But at the same time, I was somewhat side tracked by my W's wanting a D and then us reconciling. I had mixed emotions on everything through that period. Everything seemed to be going well, so I thought from April until September when she started seeing OM. Nothing has been the same since.

W doesn't know that I am going to see the priest each week. I haven't told her because I didn't think it would be recieved well. So she thinks that I am going to counseling each week. I had told her earlier on that I was going to AA. I guess I need to start going back and work through this 12 step process.

I am waiting to hear back from the C regarding my girls. Once I have more info, I will bring it up to W. I think my D11 needs it to, not just D7. D11 seems to have a lot of anger and I'm sure some of it is stimming from the current situation. We were talking about Jesus coming back some day and she said she doesn't know why Jesus would want to take her. We talked some more. But that kind of startled me that she thinks that. That says there are some things going on in her mind that need to be worked out.

D7 asked me this morning if I gave W the card. I said yes. She then asked if W liked it. I said I don't know and that I gave it to her as she was leaving. Then D7 asked me if W gave me a card. I said no, but that W has been very busy with her friend being sick from this thing she contracted. D11 was just quiet.

I talked to my dad this morning after I dropped off my girls. He is doing well at my sisters place. They are all doing good. He is just getting things set up how he likes on the 3rd floor of their house.

Yes, I know I need to continue to work no myself in order to have a chance at my W again down the road.

W did love that I was taking the girls to the dance studio and wanted the girls to show her what they are learning. I guess that looked good in her eyes even though that had nothing to do with why I was taking them. Me and the girls prayed for mommy to be ok.

DW, I did pray for yall last night and will continue to do so. I hope you and your family are ok through this process.

Kevin