So about two weeks ago a BIG change in me occurred. Friday night I have my kids and my son has a mild asthma attack and W forgot to pack inhaler. I call her and tell her I need to come and get it, she says no I'll bring it it was my fault...I said he's there isn't he...no answer...I say just leave it on the front porch, I'll pick it up. So I go over there don't see it, this is about 10:30pm so I ring the doorbell she shows me where it is...Then she starts trying to tell me something I say, I don't care what you have to say go F#$% your boyfriend and leave.
Felt very bad all weekend still had fun with the kids got them a Wii played that a lot.
So Sunday night I talked with a few friends about what happened and I was FINALLY able to detach I mean REALLY detach.
Monday I did call and apologize for what I said...While I think what she is doing is disrespectful what I did was also and two wrong don't make a right.
So usually when I call to talk to the kids W gets on after and we usually chat for 10-15 minutes...Now all I say is, is there anything you need to tell me about the kids if she says no then I say ok bye...
As the days progressed and I ask her just about the kids she's sounding more and more depressed.
Last Thursday when I called to talk to the k's she wouldn't let me get off the phone, just kept saying oh one more thing...this went on for 20 minutes...
Then when I got the kids this Friday I had a piece of mail that she gave me, and this may sound stupid but she also gave me some bubble gum, my favorite kind...I LOVE bubble gum...
Now I'm not saying any of this trying to "fix" my M cuz I think it's too late...The reason for the post is I no longer feel a need to want to talk to W, and that, for a lack a better word feels good.
Me:40 W: 39 T: 17 years M: 15 years S-9 D-6 D final 11/10/2009
"We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as insoluble problems."
