Just so you know...

[bluerain]

Well future, if thats the case then Woo-Wee. I just sent him a text that said I am so frustrated with you! You say you want to try again, then you change your mind, and now you wont even talk to me! Very cowardly H.

I realized immediately that I should not have sent it. I logged onto facebook and I opened the chat box and as soon as it opened his name disappeared. I took it personally, I know, I know, and got pissed.

He responded immediately! Asked when I tried to talk to him, and apologized. I told him that I feel like hes blowing me off, and I apologized for calling him a nasty name, I really hate name calling. He said dont be sorry, Im being flakey. I said, frosted flakey even! He agreed. Then he asked me to tell him about my day.

So, I guess your right, it started more of a conversation between us than we've had in a while.

[bluerain]

Having a pretty good weekend. I had to work for a few hours today, but overall its been good.

I havent talked to H since friday. I am becoming increasingly dissillusioned with this. I just feel like my hope is getting a little less and less each week. Im so disappointed in him.

We have been separated for almost 15 months now. And I just feel like Im running out, of patience, hope, time, everything.

[DCBHM]

Having a pretty good weekend. I had to work for a few hours today, but overall its been good.

I havent talked to H since friday. I am becoming increasingly dissillusioned with this. I just feel like my hope is getting a little less and less each week. Im so disappointed in him.

We have been separated for almost 15 months now. And I just feel like Im running out, of patience, hope, time, everything.

I can sympathize. I've been separated 8 months and it is wearing thin on me, especially with the allegations/crazy behavior as opposed to the merely inconsiderate.

We all reach a point where we have to ask ourselves how long we are going to be the standard bearer of that torch without another runner to pass it to...

[bluerain]

We all reach a point where we have to ask ourselves how long we are going to be the standard bearer of that torch without another runner to pass it to...

Thats a perfect way to describe it!

I just saw a friend of ours and he told me that he had talked to H a few months ago, right after he had told me that he wanted to try again. H told him that he hoped he wasnt screwing with me. How could he doubt at all that his choice would mess with me?

[bluerain]

I just got on H's FB profile to just look at his pictures. I finally was brave enough to look. She is still on his friends list. I didnt look through his friends, she just happened to be in the group of 6 that rotated through while I was looking. I could puke. I absolutely didnt expect to see that. I feel like I got punched in the stomach. I was in a good mood, not spying or anything. I guess I should have been a little more suspicious. I feel like everythings in slow motion. damn him.

I have no proof that they have been in contact, and I never asked him to not contact her, or take her off his list. I know shes not on his myspace list anymore. Do this could be as simple as an oversight. STILL!!!

[mdoodles]

i know how u feel. it stinks, it hurts, even if u think they arent in contact.

i stopped looking at anything that could possibly upset me.

my h doesnt have a fb page, but psycho ow does and she taunts me with her profile picture by posting it with him. and she only started doing that when she saw mine last year of my family.

so i stopped looking, cant hurt me if i dont look.

dont look at his fb. dont look at anything. when u guys reach the point where u are seriously going to attempt to reconcile, then u address the fb page and who is his friend. then u set the boundary of removing her, if she is still on there at that point.
just my opinion.

[karen43]

I do think it could be an oversight. I agree with mdoodles too. I'm sorry; that must have been awful! I do think it's best not to check fb pages and stuff just b/c of stuff like that. I really do think it was probably an oversight, but still a dumb one!!! (((((((br)))))

[bluerain]

Karen, I agree. I havent looked at his fb for over a year, but he had tagged me in a picture, which is a 180 for him, he had removed all pictures of me until recently. I had been afraid to look until recently, but I thought that it would be ok since he put those pitcures of me up.

I know that she broke his heart, (eww) and I dont think that he would keep her on there, but then again, I havent exactly been able to read his mind!

Doodles, thats advice I give everyone! I guess that I just forgot it for myself!

Thanks guys!

[karen43]

Doodles, thats advice I give everyone! I guess that I just forgot it for myself!

Thanks guys!

You do give the best advice!!! Funny though how it's so easy to see stuff in other people's sitch but in our own lives it's completely different. I always feel clueless in my own sitch!!! Karen

[bluerain]

I sometimes feel like I need someone standing over me telling me what to do! Things have been pretty quiet over here lately. No contact with H. I called the phone coaching and I have one more session left. I think that Ill save it until I feel like it can do some more good. Right now isnt the time. Hopefully H will pull his head out. Well see. Im just not sure if it will be productive right now.