K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

Wow,

What a day on here. Stacy, I would like to say that I to am very sorry to hear about your BIL. I hope that he is able to recover and I can only imagine the pain that everyone in your family must be filling from this. My prayers are definitely with you and your BIL.

To answer the question about why I was posting during church from my blackberry. The mass had not begun yet. We got there early. Thats why. I don't post or even look at my phone during mass most of the time.

This afternoon I was talking to one of my friends about shoring up plans for tonight and she had her room mate in the car with her. Her room mate said why would I want to be with someone like my W when I can have all of her. I was like WHAT??? Umm... NO. I am not interested in her room mate or anyone else. Her room mate is not bad looking at all. But I am a committed man to my W. So I let my friend know that who already knows that so there was no hope from her room mate. Geez... It was flattering, don't get me wrong. But that is not who I am.

Tonight, I had a wonderful night surprisingly. W ended up dropping by my apartment to watch the girls so I could go out. She called me on my way out.

Later when I got back she explained that her best friend had caught something extremely contagious that the doctors just diagnosed this morning. In fact it was so contagious that once it was diagnosed, the doctors came back in covered up. W has been with her since Friday and they said that you can start experiencing symptons 4 to 9 days after being around it. So my W is worried that she might possibly have it now after spending the past couple of days at the hospital with her in the same room.

We talked for a while and W agreed that I needed to keep the kids at least through tomorrow night to see if W caught anything from this. I told her that I hope she didn't and obviously I am concerned about her safety. But I am also concerned about my daughters safety and so it is better for them to stay with me for a bit longer until we know for sure.

W said she didn't like the school in the area that I live in. I said that is fine because I am not renewing the lease in December. She asked where I am going to go. I said I don't know but I'm not thrilled with this apartment complex and it was just a temporary place until I figured things out.

As W was leaving I handed her the card with pictures and told her regardless of the situation, I think the day is still worth recognizing for what it brought us. She said thank you and then I walked off.

I kept my emotions completely 100% in check. I was surprised myself. I handled everything very cool in front of her. I came across as a strong supportive husband and someone that is there for her but able to take care of me and my girls. She was actually really nice tonight. I think she is just really worried that she might be infected.

It was nice to see her even if it was only for a few minutes tonight. I know she is completely detached from me. But as I think about her right now, I still love her regardless.

So tonight, I went out to dinner with my friends to an all you can eat sushi buffet. It was truly amazing. We had a great time. Then my friends who are dancers and helping me to learn how recommended that I bring my daughters to the ballroom dance studio after and they would work with them to. So I went and got my daughters and took them. We had a great time again. I danced with both D7 and D11. D7 was really into it and pretty much danced the entire time. She told me that she loved it and wants to keep doing it. I said we will now that I know I can bring them there.

So a day that I was dreading turned out to be just a wonderful evening all around. Things went so well in every aspect tonight. I was very happy tonight and just really enjoyed myself. I am getting more and more into this dancing as I learn more steps. It is a great escape from things. One of my friends was like why do I think she does it. Cool.

Kevin