Maybe you will get what you NOW wish for, which is hope...
Just a thought. Deal with what is, don't spend time trying to recreate what has fundamentally changed and will never be the same again. You can lose someone close to you to death and yet still, someday be happy and laugh again. Your world/life won't be the same; but it will/can be good again if you cope with what IS, not what was, and cannot be again.
Your m won't be the same again - but it may be happy again. Work with that...there is hope.
And "Happy birthday!" j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
