Thought I was over this

[C-Bart]

I'm trying to make sense of the following: W filled for D 4/09/09 after signing paperwork on 3/20. I never was served other than one attempt she made to have me sign a notice of appearance. I refused to sign until my L reviewed. All of these dates have significance (3/20 opened my own bank account, request sign after one of my meltdowns) In an effort to move out of limbo I worked with my A to file an appearance and answer (I am now regretting this decision).

My gut is telling me she wants me to do all the work necessary to make the D happen. This would be the same pattern for every major decision we have had to make over the past 16 years. I get to make the difficult decisions so she can claim no responsibility. I don't want a D. Never have. No idea what she wants at this point.

Here is the question. I've made some progress over the past few weeks with GAL and don't want to go back to 0. That being said, should I request the case be dismissed (legally) or just ride this out? I may have already done that with my response. Think the last line says something like The respondent therefore request the request be denied.

How can you love someone and be so frustrated with them at the same time? Feeling really down today.