I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

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journaling..

Went out with all my best friends last night in the city and did some dancing and only had one drink! I was good at controlling myself I have to say. I had a good day yesterday. I always have great fun with my best friends. Before going out to the city, I spent the entire day with my best friend, lets call her K. My day is always better when we hang out and chat and laugh. We've been going out together every weekend which is good, making up for lost time.

We went all over yesterday. We went shopping (she went shopping, I have no money!), went out for coffee and a nice, fun chat, went to a sportings good store because she needed to buy some scuba diving gear as she's going on vacation to PR soon with the BF, lucky her, then we went to find a bike!! Found a really cool one at Dick's SG, but it was $120 which was fine for her but not for me but it was so cute! Then we headed to Wal-Mart to check out the cheaper options and there was the cute Schwinn vintage style one that I want which is $84 and she tried it but it was too high for her! She's really short! hehe.

Then we went back home and got ready to go out. I wore a pair of jeans that I hadn't fit me in a long time which was great! Wore a pair of awesome heels but feet started to hut as we were walking all over the city! Met up with all our friends at a lounge/nightclub. I did some dancing but the place was so crowded and stinky that I spent most of my time outside smoking and talking to people there. I need to relax with the cigarettes. None of my friends smoke and they hate that I do and are always trying to steal my cigs and throw em away. Gotta love em for trying. They're very good, caring friends. Don't know where I'd be and what I'd do without them. I will quit soon, I have cut down significantly lately, it was just yesterday .. I couldn't drink, it was way too stuffy and stinky on the dancefloor (I felt like I was going to puke, it was that bad) and my friends couldn't take it either after awhile so we hung out at the more relaxed lounge/bar area and because they could drink and I couldn't, I just went out and smoked and talked to guys, which gave me an ego boost I have to admit! But must stop the smoking, gradually.

Then afterwards a couple of us went out to a late late dinner but because everyone had come out of the bars and clubs by then, all the restaurants that were open were completely packed!! So we waited for a bit but never got seated because there were just too many people waiting so we ended up parting ways and going home at 4 in the morning! Got back home at 5 in the morning and crashed! Woke up at 10 this morning so I ended up only having 5 hours of sleep. My body has gotten used to waking up between 9 and 10 now. Before, my sleeping pattern was ridiculous and all over the place. I'm really glad to be up in the mornings now, I havent really expereinced mornings in the past year.

On the drive back, K and I had great conversations about people we had crushes on in high school! The guys she had crushes on! CRAZY!! There were so many! But who am I to judge, I did too! haha. I had one major crush in high school though and EVERYONE knew. It was so obvious. I ended up bumping into him a few months ago with H, and I introduced them and I talked to him for a bit. I think H was a bit jealous as he knew that was my one huge, major crush ever haha. Well now that H is gone ............ crush is on my FB........... crush doesn't know I'm newly single ..........

So all in all, had a great day yesterday. Not too sure what to do today though. Search for jobs and apartments again. Its getting OLD. Nothings coming up at all. I wish I could pay someone to cosign for me! I really need to have a move in date to look forward to, it gives me so much motivation. When my B said he was going to cosign, I was so happy, I was going so much because it motivated me to get up and work towards getting my life back together and it made me so happy that the life I want is coming to me soon and now, I feel so unmotivated because I don't have that date to look forward to. I don't know when I'll ever move, I don't know how long I'll be stuck here for. I'm trying to stay motivated and see the positives in my living sitch but it just does not keep me motivated. I need to have a date set to make it feel real, that I'm really going to move out and I can finally get motivated! So I'm going to continue to try and work on finding a place and setting that date that I feel like I really need.

Not too sure what I need to do today. Half of my ebay items end today and I'm really eager to see what the ending prices are. I hope its at least 500!! Please let it be 500! or even more! That would be so great! and then I hope the other half, ending mid-week fetches 500 too. That would give me the $1000 that I was striving for! Fingers crossed!

I have to go get prescription refills today as I'm running out of ADs. So that's one thing to do today. I really, really want to buy that bike from WAL-MART. I know I want to save money for the apt but I don't even know when I'm going to get one. And its $84 and it would get me out and about (not too much lately though as its been nonstop rain this summer!). But I'm so tempted to just buy it, it'll make me happy and I'll look at it and I can envision myself in a pretty hippie flowy dress with flowers in my hair and blowing in the wind, riding down the streets of Btown and biking around the pretty Charles! We'll see, I'll make my decision when I head to get my prescriptions at Wal-Mart.

What else can I do today? I can start packing and pretend as if I'm moving soon! I love packing. And when the time does come when I really do have to pack because I REALLY am moving out (please, please, please), I won't have as much to do! I don't know what else to do, maybe I'll do that. It'll make me happy. And I'll do anything right now that makes me happy.