Trying to stay strong

[hopeful_cb]

I am doing my best to keep busy this weekend with gym, swimming, cooking, watched confessions of a shopaholic last night, and going for a coffee with a friend today.

I had some crazy strange dreams on friday night. trying to get those out of my head. In one H and I were being chased by a couple angry Giraffes, v weird.

H text today saying he hopes im well and that he thought he'd see how i am getting on? with a smiley face.

It seems he does want to talk to me which makes it hard. I want to be chatty and friendly and talk, but then I think should I just be 'busy'? I guess thinking about how things have played out in the past the 'busy' routine has never given me any positive results, he just stops contacting me. In fact he even told me when I dont text/email him back or leave it a long while he thinks I dont want to hear from him so stops.

I guess I am just 'thinking' thru my worries here to get them out.