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[LolaL]

I am having such a great time in NY I have extended my stay. It is so nice to be around people who love me for me. I love my father, but sometimes it feels like he is trying to make me something I am not. There is also a possibility of a job here, once of the reasons I am staying a little longer...

I just hate to think of the winters...

[MichelleLT]

Yes, but a job would be super nice lol. Then you could afford to run the heater a bit!

[jon2911]

Hey, how cool! What part of NY? SIL lives in upstate near Glens Falls and it sounds beautiful.

[LolaL]

I am in Rochester right now, and I don't think I have ever felt so alone in my life.

I am, for lack of a better word, homeless, living from place to place, looking for a job. No matter what I do, I cannot seem to find anything.

And in the end, this makes me angry. H has his home. H has his job. And part of me is so dammed angry I want to call immigration to tell them that while H is toting my name around as his wife, his wife and SD13 are virtually homeless.

I feel like there is no one for me to talk to. My entire life has been in upheaval, and for God's sake I want to know how much more I have to take. Because honestly, I don't think I can handle much more. Something has got to give.

And so I sit in silence, and smile to hide the tears, and just try to catch my breath.

And feel like I don't belong anywhere anymore.

[mishka422]

(((((Chris)))))

Sweetheart....you know we are all here for you. You're not alone, not at all.

Question...are you not going back to your dad's in VA? Are you staying in NY now?

The job market stinks everywhere. It's so hard for everyone so you're definitely NOT alone there either.

I wish I had something I could say that would help, but all I have for you is my encouragement and love.

[jon2911]

Hang in there Lola! I'm so angry about this recession, just seems like the last thing I needed in the midst of trying to DB. And the person I should look to for comfort is treating me like an unemployed loser. This sucks!

Is your Texas unemployment coming yet?

[LolaL]

Thanks guys. Yeah, Jon, but I got a call from the UI office in El Paso Friday. Apparently they want me to come in for an orientation. Guess I need to let them know I am on the east coast looking for work.

Mish...think I am going to stay here for a bit. The cost of living in VA is so dammed high, 1200/mo for a two bedroom apartment. I thought the rate of pay was going to be substantially higher, and its not. Here I can get an apartment that is decent and comparable to what I was paying in EP, and I am still around family and really good friends. I actually managed to get in touch with the woman who used to place me through an agency out here, and she requested I give her a call tomorrow, so we will see what happens.

Jon, the recession is everywhere. As many jobs as I applied for in VA and DC, there are probably at least three times as many people looking for work. I have never felt this hopeless before. But at least I am now surrounded by people who love me, and so its a little easier.

But I still miss my H, even though the M is over. For some reason, I think of him a lot again, and I don't know why.

[jon2911]

Hang in there Lola! See what you can do for Texas UI. I get $417 a week, it definitely helps.

[MichelleLT]

Hear hear!

[LolaL]

I am getting about 300/week, but worried that because I am not actually seeking a job in Texas they will cut it off. Placed a call into the UI office today to tell them I was on the east coast so couldn't go to the orientation, will see what they say...