he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i just want to move already. i want out of this house, as much as i love it and will miss it, im ready to go.

i cant be next door anymore to my in laws. i love them and they love me, but its too much for me now...h took his father's truck yesterday and still hasnt brought it back. im tired of knowing i can look out the window and wonder if he will be pulling up.

i dont want to know from it anymore. if i didnt live next door, i wouldnt even know that someone drove him out here to take the truck. i have no clue why he took it and it doesnt even matter! its just that im here to witness things and dont want to be.

oh and did i mention that since he is angry at me for selling things, he hasnt called son...

its amazing how right i am that he ties me and son together. its not right. he is a crummy father. one day he will wake up, right? one day he will so see the damage he has done. i think on some level he sees it already and then buries those feelings under his ugliness.

but one day he will feel bad and want his family back. one day.