Anyway, I'm all alone again. No one is ever home. My parents go out to wherever they want to go, my brother goes out to wherever he wants to go. I'm left all alone but not like it matters, we don't talk when they're here anyway. Its all just a f*cked up situation. Its like they don't care at all what I'm going through. They don't ask me to go anywhere with them when they go out, they don't even ask me if I want to go to the supermarket.
Okay, I'm calling you out on this. It is perfectly normal for your brother and your parents to go places. It's not their fault that you don't drive. It's not their responsibility to sit at home, nor is it their responsibility to ask you to go anywhere with them. You're a grown woman, if you want to go to the supermarket, use your words and ask. Don't expect people to read your mind. And for you to assume they don't care, because they don't respond in the way you want, is misguided and immature.
Take responsibility for your life -- no one else is going to.
As far as the weight loss goes, that will be great for your health. I don't know how realistic it is for you to start an eating plan now (don't say diet - diets end, and a new way of dealing with food in your life is an eating plan and will never end), with all the other stress going on in your life. And it's going to take a long time to lose the weight, you'll need to be very patient. Just don't put too many expecatations on yourself at once.
You say that you and your H were so happy together, but if that's true, why did you gain 100 lbs. in just a few years?
