A very wise man(who also has a way with words) compared this to feeding a wild animal. My new mantra has become she's a f-ing crazy @ss squirrel.(I mean that in the most sweet sincere way too)
I have to be patient. I have to let her come to me when she feels like it. I can't make any loud noises or sudden movements.
I need to be a magnet and draw her in by being myself and showing her my changes are for real. Still much like being the rock solid island with the lighthouse on it in the middle of the storm.
That in and of itself is difficult, but when she tosses out things like. "we are going to be alright trapt." "You gotta have faith." It makes it so damn hard.
What does she mean by that? Well it's not important right now. Flirting and saying suggestive things like that is a carrot on a stick or a nicely baited sharp hook. Been there, done that. If I haven't learned that lesson by now.....well shame on me.
