It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Thanks, ((((Glam)))).

Yea, I'm trying to get a life, but it still often feels like I'm just going through the motions, ya know? I am doing OK, but I still feel a real void in my life and pretty much every day, I cry at least once. But, I want to be very careful because I don't want to jump at something/someone (if the opportunity every arises) just to fill that void.......

And though I know I will be just fine, I really don't think that I will ever be OK with the fact that to H, our M wasn't worth saving..... or rather rebuilding. I really believe that H and I ultimately want the same things, and are capable of building a very happy life together. I know that in my soul. But, I can't make H see that, and I can't do it alone. And I don't think that H will ever allow for that possibility.

My mother once told me that if she was the woman with my dad, that she is currently with my step-dad, she still would have been married to my dad and they would have been happy. I find that so sad and it makes me feel so helpless!! I hate feeling that way!