I do tend to overanalyze things these days as there is that part of my past that is trying to tell me that her "wanting space" means she wants to end it.
My rational self knows that is garbage, but after years of mental battering, I'm a bit conditioned so I have to keep fighting against myself until what I'm supposed to do becomes natural.
As for the flowers, I did send them, but I've had to change the delivery date to Monday as she took a last minute offer to go away for the weekend w/her girlfriends. I'm glad she went and told her to have a great time.
Again, my fears abated as she's sent me two texts since she arrived at her hotel and she's said she'll most likely be calling me tonight after she goes out.
I really like it when she goes out w/her friends and ends up calling me b/c it lets me know that I'm the one she's thinking about. I mean, I'd rather be w/her, but the fact that I'm on her mind is reason for me to feel good about us.
It is a process and a new thing for me, so I just need to give it the time it needs and I think all will turn out to be ok in the end. It is just getting there that is the hard part.
However, you have to walk before you can run, so the more patient I am, the healthier relationship we'll end up building.
