K4D Rising #4

[mulesqb]

A couple of things: Just wanted to say that I am proud of you. I just read a number of posts from you with no mention of whatshername.

Mules,

With my 12 year anniversary 2 days away, I would be lying if I said it was not on my mind as well as ML. But I am doing the best I can by trying to focus on other things.

Thanks,

Kevin

Kev - You are a human being. Of course you are going to think of that stuff. I still do also. Just remember this - she is fully detached from you right now. Ok, it sux to know that, but she is. So those things aren't on top of her mind. But know this. It gets easier. The more you work at it and the harder you try, it will get easier. You are making progress Kevin. Focus on that. Get back to the bounce in your step that you had yesterday and this morning. You know what - my next court date is two weeks before my 18 anniversary. When I was in court my STBX pretended she couldn't remember what year we were married. It hurt, but I can't control that. What I can control is letting myself get caught up in that. I left court and went to the driving range. A half hour later I was trying to figure out why the heck I hit my irons so high, rather than something that I can't control. Keep letting go of the rope. As much as you can per day. You're doing better. Stay with it.

Recognize the emotions. You're a good man. You have nice memories. Start working on making new ones.

Strength and Honor.

Mules