Glad to hear you are hanging in there. I do not think you need to do a better job of letting go - I think you are doing everything just fine.
Here is something that helps me...(are you a runner?) in any case, when I run any distance over three miles, I often catch myself tensing up all my muscles...it's seems to be a physical manifestation of my grit and determination to run the next three - four miles. The thing is...that never helps, always makes the run more arduous. Even though it seems counterintuitive, I force myself to relax my muscles while running...and it always gets a little easier...not easy, but easier. Have found this to be true of emotional runs, too.
