Newly Separated and Heartbroken

[ALJ]

cpfullofhope,

((((HUGS))))

I have also questioned why I would want to stay married to someone that says that he doesnt love me anymore. The only answer is that I love him and dont want to throw my marriage away. He has been a part of my life since 5th grade and right now I dont see myself with someone else. My H literally changed into an alien overnite and I couldnt understand this transformation into a cold stranger.

When my H moved out of town, I would text him with messages like "I miss u" or "what are u doing?" He would never respond. I called him 2 times since he left and when he answered, it was like I was bothering him so I never did it again. I let the kids call him whenever they want. He calls every two to three days and most of the time I keep the conversation upbeat, not really talking about myself. I just talk about the kids and ask whats going on with his entertainment company and informing him about the financial aspects of the household.

No communication, not spending time with each other, and not showing affection toward one another were the main issues in our marriage. I want to do 180's concerning these areas but it is impossible because he lives so far away and when he does visit I sure he does not want any time alone with me or me showing him any affection. I am finally letting my family know about our separation and the next step will be to figure out how he can see more of the kids.

His birthday is next week and the kids will send him cards and a gift. I would like to send him a card also but dont know if I should. The kids sent him cards for fathers day also but he did not send me a mothers day card from himself.(We had just separated and maybe that was the last thing on his mind, who knows?) Our ten year wedding anniversary is in october and I would hate for the day to go by and not acknowledge it. I just dont know. You were right about it being hard to have patience when going through a separation. I have to take it one day at a time.