He called! This morning. He had on his "work" voice. Very official and cold sounding. He wants to bring me some cd's tomorrow a.m. and asked me to load all his pictures and work files from my computer that he used to use. He wants to pick up the loaded cds on sunday morning. I reminded him that I'm moving soon and he has tools & stuff in the basement so he said he'd get all that sunday too. I wanted my life to be perfect the day he turned up, but there's no time left now! I have a huge event at work this eve and I'm preparing for that already. No time to clean house. My house is horrible because I've been pulling everything out of closets and drawers and making piles of stuff to get rid of b4 the move. It's just a disaster! I may have to meet him outside to pick up tomorrow a.m. Hope I can pull the house together by sunday a.m. I work weekends so this is a daunting task at hand! There couldn't possibly be a worse weekend for him to come! In my perfect scenerios, I would have taken many bags & boxes to charitable donation and sold all the unwanted furniture. Instead it's all piling up in the entrance & hallway. I hoped he would come and see zero clutter and sparkling clean house that smells yummy like frankenscence. In a perfect world he would come at eve. and I'd have cooked and could offer him some. Darn, not to be my perfect way. This was the first time I've talked to him since he moved without saying something about how much I miss him, or telling him I love him. He was brief and I didn't try to linger on phone for more. I asked how he's doing and that was it. I miss him soooooo much. To hear his voice and have it be so curt & to the point is quite painful. I'm going to cry a little now. Then my busy day is waiting for me. What's going to be the best way to handle the 2 brief visits? I can't help but think sunday could be the last I ever see him. I have maybe 1/2 hour to cast some small doubt in his resolve. I know I should look gorgeous & be bright and cheery. I'll do the best I can to straighten the house back at least to how it was, if not to what I aspired it to be when he arrived. I am not ready. I need a crash refresher course! What to do?!
