Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

Good Morning Mac...

Don't mean to go quiet...

Just had a lot piling on the last few days (not the sitch) and reached a breaking down point yesterday...

I just don't know how much more 1 person can take to be honest...

Someone told me (I think Puppy) that God gives you a little at a time so as not to break you however I don't want anymore...

I could barely breathe last night...

I want to be done with this...

I want my life back...

I want my husband back...

I want to wake from this nightmare and be able to say Thank God I got through that...

In the past few months, I have lost my job, my house, my self respect, my self-esteem, my husband and now about to lose my car...

I got my old job back, still no husband, no house, a warrent out for my arrest (found that out last night - handling that right now), car could be gone by tomorrow, in-laws threatning to take my kids from me and my oldest son is now gone...

He doesn't like me anymore and wants nothing to do with me so he has moved over to my Moms' house for the time being...

I am not doing enough to bring his Dad back home...

I don't care enough that his Dad is gone...

I am tired and hurt and sad and I want this over...:(

So you know why I am quiet now...Just trying to process everything and see where I go from here.