Can it get any worse?

[glamgirl]

Ok gearing up courage today to call. For some that may sound strange, but this is really hard for me. I'm scared to find out what I don't know if that makes sense.

I mainly want to call him so he doesn't show up on my doorstep again or at my job, if they do that. How emabarrassing this whole thing is.

I did let h know, he said call him and he wanted me to do it right away. H said it's probably something about neighbors. I am not so sure about that. I really hope it's not more info about my h. I can't take anymore.

Yes Snodderly the certified letter had no return address or name. Had no idea who it might be from, so I went with my postman's suggestion and refused delivery.

This is all so strange and not how I live my life. At least, not until this whole MLC with h.

H is up to his usual hibernation techniques. He texted said he couldn't make it yesterday. I had to scramble to find childcare on top of a busy work day.

I find myself paranoid now when the doorbell rings or a car pulls up to the house. What a way to live your life. It so funny I feel like I need someone to hold my hand when I call the sheriff today. Stomach is in knotts. I know I am an adult, but not so sure how I got this way of feeling fear of the unknown. I just feel like so many things to process all at once.