I hope the AD help. I wished I would have gotten some to help me sleep back in those days.
Yeah I was knocked out last night. My IC was concerned because I've explained to her my feelings lately. I'm a very analytical and logical person - but there is that part of me that is burned out looking at the future. Whatever happens as a result of the D being final is not going to be the end of the problems I'm facing because W's problems are internal and will not be solved by the hammer of a gavel.
As well as things have been going legally, there is a part of me that isn't going to be emotionally available to anyone else for a while. I don't think that is fair to anyone else I may be with in the future for me to be locked down like I am.
I'm also seriously considering a vasectomy. That would probably be unfair if I met someone in the future who wanted kids... I just don't think I could handle this again.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
