It was great meeting and greeting you, incognito in my 'yikes I live in suburbia' togs. Strange to meet at a coffee shop with two folks who don't drink java.
What was neat was being able to talk to someone who walks the walk. It's so easy to be cerebral about this chaotic process. My favorite part was when I felt something in you open to the you within.. a kind of peace, calm awareness exuded. Yes, it hurts, but the hurt was allowed to be real and felt. Almost relaxing after holding it in.
Perhaps I am more of a closet gypsy in learning about energy work. All I know is that whatever happened in that moment for you was a giant leap toward healing.
Thanks for listening to my endless stories. Focus on the Gardener, on you. Learn why and how to resolve the fear within. It is daunting but quite rewarding.
I'm awake, I'm in fine form, I've just saved someone's job and an Ad agency a lot of money. Feels great to be a fixer - in my work life
Well I'm aware now and reading up a storm. You guys seemed to have fun! Bizarre when you think on how the meeting was initiated by finding your way here first
G - I thought all American's had a set of those night goggles? I can just imagine you staggering up and down the isle with a pair of those on I hope you took your hat off
Hey - didn't know BeePee was going to be there! Great stuff! And Puppy and gima and gypsy. What a crowd. What a wealth of knowledge.
I'm happy to see you acknowledge some baggage still needing to be packed up and shipped off.
I'm deliriously happy to read this from Gypsy (and I'm sure you will be to).
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All I know is that whatever happened in that moment for you was a giant leap toward healing.
It must make a world of difference actually seeing the human being that is going through all this.
Typing is great but it's no replacement for that "in your face" experience. Gypsy coined the word "cerebral". I couldn't agree more.
Well done one and all. Sounds like you had a blast.
Back to the job for the afternoon. Then off to the local for the first time in a week. I'm going to win the money tonight - I've decided
Oh - nearly forgot. It was decided last night that Mac is going to have a party next Thursday night. Why Thursday? Why not. Busy inviting everyone I know (minus 2). There may be a tantrum on the way
Would this be in the script? Everything else I see in my W seems to be. Weird.
Oh and just remembered - I called my Satellite company and had all the channels turned back on. Bugger it, I work hard and deserve some enjoyment.
Well I'm aware now and reading up a storm. You guys seemed to have fun!
Whatcha reading?Did DR/DB arrive already? More than fun. Gypsy's very sharing and caring, much as you'd expect.
Originally Posted By: Mac-ct
G - I thought all American's had a set of those night goggles?
No,no. We're all issued HumVees and assault rifles; the goggles are extra
Originally Posted By: Mac-ct
Hey - didn't know BeePee was going to be there! Great stuff! And Puppy and gima and gypsy. What a crowd. What a wealth of knowledge.
No, no. That was just me taking your "Or are you busy eating ice cream and popcorn in the back row?" metaphor to the extreme
Originally Posted By: Mac-ct
I'm happy to see you acknowledge some baggage still needing to be packed up and shipped off.I'm deliriously happy to read this from Gypsy (and I'm sure you will be to).
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All I know is that whatever happened in that moment for you was a giant leap toward healing.
It must make a world of difference actually seeing the human being that is going through all this.Typing is great but it's no replacement for that "in your face" experience.
Amen, amen, amen.
Originally Posted By: Mac-ct
Oh - nearly forgot. It was decided last night that Mac is going to have a party next Thursday night.
What time?
Take care. I'll head over to your thread later to catch up.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
G-woman, I had a wonderful time, too. As far as me "walking the walk", well, you know I'm more 'staggering the stagger' at this point. You, my dear, are walking the walk. In health. I wanna be like you when I grow up.
You asked me. "what do you fear in life? What (kinds of things) are you afraid of,?" I gave you some off-the-top (true) answers. Driving home I realized that since my wife left me I'm afraid of anyone/everyone knowing just how afraid I am.
Thanks for sharing your "endless stories".
*hugs*
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Serenity has posted song or two in her and Mac-ct's threads. Favorite songs, favorite songwriters crystalize things for me, hold a mirror up to me and give me hope.
So, self-indulgently, I want to share three songs with you (and, therefore, share me) from my favorite singer/songwriter Mary Chapin Carpenter. These are hanging on my bedroom wall.
First one. Where I am, have been struggling, and hopefully starting to move out of:
Closer And Closer Apart Tell me the truth Don't ask me to lie These are the things we say You don't need proof and I'm not going to try But I think we have lost our way
You don't own the sun and I can't raise the moon So now as the darkness falls Love is so hard won then over too soon And another cruel ending calls
All I can do is turn now to you Holding my hand to my heart All that I know is I'm watching us grow Closer and closer apart
Now all the kings horses and all the kings men Wait for their clarion call Pride hears its voices, and fear wins again And there's nothing to break our fall
Over and over and over again The world only spins one way The past is a distant flicker by now And a lesson for another day
Now, my sad little boat floats on out to sea And you're almost out of sight I'll remember you Please don't forget me I whisper with all my might
All I can do is turn now to you Holding my hand to my heart All that I know is I'm watching us grow ... All I can do is turn back to you And wave with one hand on my heart All that I know is it's so hard to go ... [ Closer And Closer Apart Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
Second one. I'm almost there! So close, yet...
Here I Am I've waited longer for lesser things But here I am Who really knows what tomorrow brings But here I am Just in case you were wondering Just in case you lost again Just in case you run out of friends, here I am
It's so easy to rip and to tear, so here I am What you need the most Disappears into thin air, so here I am Maps and compasses may stay true It doesn't really matter what you do I have never forgotten you Here I am
Some days our reach Is bound to far exceed our grasp I gave up hoping long ago I could fix the past, here I am
Today I called you For the very first time in a million years You would never know if I told you so About these million tears Life doesn't wave as it's speeding by Better grab on fast and hold on tight And don't ever forget to fight this good fight And here I am Here I am Here I am Here I am [ Here I Am Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
And, I pray often for this glorious morning to come soon:
Bright Morning Star Last night I dreamed my head was in a fever Last night I dreamed it never was so far To reach a shore of safety and redemption And to gaze upon a bright morning star
I dreamed I was by friends all but abandoned I dreamed I was alone but for my scars And blinded by the tears that fell like water No more to see my bright morning star
The streets of dreams never looked this lonely The streets of dreams never felt this hard I heard my voice barely of a whisper As the clouds denied a bright morning star
Sometimes this life is no more than a moment And sometimes the light is lost unto the dark But courage hears the sound of dawn approaching And each our own bright morning star
I woke to find every window open I woke to find the heavy door ajar And I walked outside and stood upon the hilltop And gazed once more on a bright morning star
I walked outside and every bird was singing As I found again my bright morning star [ Bright Morning Star Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
For Serenity13, for you guys...for me
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Oh, well. Like my IC said, depite progress in many areas, the heart lags.
I like that. The heart is a lagging indictator. Kinda like flying on instruments vs visual, you need to use the better tools and then cross-check. Your eyes can deceive you. Sticking that in my quiver.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
I'd like to thank you, also for your Film Study - What Worked post. I printed it when I arrived here in June and read it whenevr I stumble (read: often).
Don't know if you saw me tippin' my gardener's hat to you Tuesday night, but here it is, again.
Originally Posted By: Gardener
Originally Posted By: givingitmyall
You might want to read Coach's original thread. He went through a lot of the D stuff. And he and Greek are together now.
Ihave. Or, to paraphrase Sen. Lloyd Bentsen: "I've read Coach. I've printed Coach*. Coach is a model of mine. Gardener, you're no Coach!"
*I re-read Film Study - What Worked several times a week.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
