My new anniversary date was yesterday. 1 year divorced. It came and went and to be honest I didn't think about it till right now. (though many lingering memories the days before)

So many holidays/birthdays have passed since it ended and he moved out. my daughter is soon to turn 13 - another "monumental" moment of which we will not share as one -as a family.

But what am I going to do? sit around and mope - or keep doing this moving forward thing? It seems as though we really have no choice. that is what time -days-years are telling me. You have to wake up in the morning, go to bed at night -- it is just what you do... and right now in my life I feel a bit like ground hog day. Push the button go - turn off the light sleep.

I have to believe that life will begin WITHIN me again some day. That the death of love will heal and that hte scare tissue will not be so tender.


i have to believe.............


M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06
Moved out 3/12/07
D final 7/30/2008
finding myself again