In Limbo

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The last thing on your note. Choose to be happy over being right. That hit home tonight. She again took a minor issue and turned into the whole you have never listened to me and always controlled me. We started to argue in the car. Of course the kids say stop. It was all I could do to not jump out of my skin. I get tired of being walked on and tired of being wrong. However, after I got home, I went to work out. I find myself doing that in the morning and at night now. Came home and was happy. Took the kids out for a bike ride and the anger is gone or at least hidden for now. About the job comment, I could tell she was getting stir crazy. She just needed a new outlet. All the voulenteering wasn't doing it. When I said it, she said how can I do it in this economy? Then Facebook happened. I should have noticed when her homepage picture only was of her and the boys. I was out. Anyway, 2 years. That is amazing and you are one strong person. I just hope I have the strength to make it 6 months to a year. I know my wife has to be in there somewhere. I don't know who the person is I am married to. She only talks of fixing herself, finding herself. I know I open myself up when I want to "talk" or write a letter. It always ends up that I was a horrible person the last 15 years. Great father, but bad husband... Thanks for the encouragement. Need to work on more 180's.