I have not had any sort of reaction like that in a while. I think the thing that set me off was googling of engagement rings. WTF, we are not even close to finaling a D yet. My end game as of right now, I am thinking that I may just retain that L and file myself next week. Until tonight I was doing pretty good with just living "as if". Not questioning things, lettting everything be, actually helping her with getting out in a civil manner. Now I am in a tailspin, feeling that crash landing coming up for myself real soon.
