SB, you are a strong woman with a new attitude, right? You want to begin a new, healthy life, right?
So why on earth would you listen to anything your h has to say about anything anymore? I would bet the rent that he talks tough, but would fold like a cheap lawn chair if you made it very clear that you were going to march right into a courtroom with your held high and demand a fair settlement.
Do not be afraid anymore. No one who is worth your time is going to judge you for doing the right thing now. You should be proud that you are standing for your core values at last instead of burying them just to please your no-good h.