yeah, five months... seems like forever, doesn't it? But it can/will go on much longer. I think I am finally really getting that this isn't about saving the M. It's about me/you and becoming the very best person we can be. If our spouses notice the changes and come back around, we can see what's what at that time but I'm ready to stop holding my breathe and exhale. Start living... I read your last entry and we have so many similarities. My only contact with H has been related to bills. I have to fight the anger sometime b/c we didn't have these problems before he decided to leave.
I got a call from my H's boss that I can come back this fall to sell ski passes if I want. I've done this before and it'll just be one day a week. It will be a challenge at first to be at the shop with H, but I plan to handle it gracefully. If OW returns to the shop, she'd be there too so this could be interesting. But the money will be nice, and by working I get free season passes for the kids & I, so it's worth it to me.
I need to just suck it up and stop feeling sorry for myself. And keep breathing...!
