How do you wait this out?

[Golfgirl1]

I filed for divorce today, mostly to protect myself financially. Since he's involved with the VP of his company, I highly suspect some 'fishy' business with the company books and I need to be protected. Financial security is my only recourse now. I need to be able to live in the style I've been accustomed to for the past 20 years!

I am a special ed teacher and this year I took on 3 gen ed LA classes for the challenge. Well, last week I just decided I can't take on that challenge with my brain so impaired. I can do a medical leave for a month or so, so I will probably only work part time, but get paid full time. Then I can get support to transition back to full time. With all of my legal stuff I'll probably welcome some extra time this fall.

He made all kinds of crazy comments yesterday and I am just done. I sure didn't last long (standing), but I don't see any hope in the near future and he is just not the man I married and given the timeline of MCL, I just decided this is the route I need to take. I feel like he has taken so much already and I need to find myself again, find my purpose, and be happy!!!!!!

I will keep you all in the loop as my journey progresses...

M48
H 42
M 20 years
No kids
bomb 5/09
filed for divorce 7/09

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