I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[orangedog]

Just be careful about what you commit to do under repayment plans especially if you are negotiating on your own. They are watching out for their interests. Make sure you watch out for yours. It's possible to pay and pay and pay and never make any progress. And for gawd sakes don't take out loans to pay other loans and NEVER cash out retirement to pay debt - it's a protected asset. If you've got a lot going on then I would suggest a debt counseling, a financial guru, an accountant, or even a bankruptcy attorney (yes, sometimes a fresh start is better than drowning year after year in red ink).

(Look at my sig. I've been there - and I'm never going back.)

[beepee]

I'd love to file for bankruptcy but it wouldnt get rid of any of my student loans so that wouldn't help me much!!

[beepee]

So managed to make the important calls, folded all of my laundry, and reorganized my clothes drawers.

Waiting for dad to come home and see if he can cosign.
Oh and I've also made a budget for the next few months just to see where I stand and see how hard I need to work.

Talked to a few people online. Searched some kayaking tours in the cape. Found a really cool one where they take you out to see the seals!! They are so cute!! There's also another tour that takes you out during the sunrise, it looks absolutely stunning. So friends and I may camp out at the beach overnight and then head for kayaking in the sunrise! Its a bit expensive and I can't really afford as I need to save every penny but friends said they'd help figure something out for me.

Right now, I need to take a break and read some pages in the DB book and then continue my search for a job again!

[beepee]

So i just got a text message from a girl asking me if i was available for friday. I don't know who she is.

But my phone number is now H's former number so I've been getting all his calls and texts. Turns out she's a girl from a really high profile tv show asking him if he's available to shoot this friday.

I was debating whether or not I should tell him, he's worked on it before a few times and it's actually one of the biggest shows on tv right now. But I figured, he's the one ignoring me. Why should I tell him? He wouldn't tell me if he got a call for me.. he wouldn't even come visit me when I was in the hospital. So why should I tell him this right? I feel like such a b*tch for doing this. But why should I feel that way? I'm not doing anything wrong I don't think.

I still care so much for him and want him to do well in life and I feel like if I don't tell him this, his career will suffer. But he didn't care about doing anything that would affect me negatively so I feel like I should do the same but then again, I want to be the better person.

No, I can't tell him. He doesn't even care about me so I why should I care? Because I love him..AGHHH

[beepee]

Oh why am I having such a huge problem with this???

Do I tell him, Do I not tell him??

Why on earth do I care so much???

[Virtually_Handsome]

I thought the plan in such cases was to pass his email address on to whoever wanted to talk to him?

[beepee]

I'm so angry at him that I don't even want to bother with giving his email out. If he cared enough about his work, he'd contact me..But I guess that fact that he doesn't contact me about it shows how much he REALLY does not want anything to do with me. This really breaks my heart.

[Virtually_Handsome]

(((((beepee)))))

If you don't want to bother, then don't! It is his problem to maintain his contacts, and his loss if he doesn't. It's not like he is sending you money.

But, if that is your choice, make it, and stand by it. Let it go!

I will add one thing. To you, this has been going on for a long time. I have a feeling that to him, it's been about 15 minutes. That's how it always seems to be in cases like this. He is on a different time scale.

[Kettricken]

I still care so much for him and want him to do well in life and I feel like if I don't tell him this, his career will suffer.

This is really a no-brainer. If you have his old cellphone number, this kind of thing is bound to happen occasionally. No need for drama. If this is a positive opportunity for him, drop him a very brief email or text about it to the best contact for him you have. Tit-for-tat and vengeful scorekeeping is no way to run any kind of relationship. Lead by example.

[beepee]

If you don't want to bother, then don't! It is his problem to maintain his contacts, and his loss if he doesn't. It's not like he is sending you money.

Exactly, you're very right. It's outta my head! Why should I help him make money, he doesn't even send me money to pay for OUR bills! I want to believe that he cares about me, but at this point, it doesn't seem like it at all.

To you, this has been going on for a long time. I have a feeling that to him, it's been about 15 minutes. That's how it always seems to be in cases like this. He is on a different time scale.

I never saw it that way. It's good to know but jesus, how long before he feels its been going on for too long? How long before he actually contacts me? Doesn't he miss me at all? Will he ever in the future? What a stranger he's become. A changed person with the snap of a finger. And not for the better..