N, I'm sorry to hear about your friend and the shingles. They can be so painful and take forever to heal. I do hope she's up and about soon.
As for your dream, dreams are thoughts that we put aside during the day and sometimes come back to haunt us at night. Please do not allow that dream to discourage you.
I do hope that you have a wonderful birthday.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
